February 2012
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It’s almost March!
This school year has gone by way too fast. About 3 more months of school left. HOOOOO. I can’t believe it. There’s something about the month of March that I despise so much. Maybe it’s because in all my high school years, March was the month that research papers and major projects were due. I have this huge RP due and to present on the 23rd, but after...
& all the socal people are freaking about thunder and lightning. Lol.
Anonymous asked: (Part 2) Im looking forward to getting to know you more. And although we are headed to college soon and we probably wont be seeing much of each other, like I said earlier; Im glad I met you girl! - ANONYMOUS (BO MAY)
Anonymous asked: HEY LADY! Im glad I met you girl! I like how we finally are starting to get to know each other and stuff (; When I first saw you, I thought you were an average pretty asian girl. Although in the beginning I had misconceptions of what kind of person you were, Ive learned that you arent what I thought you were before I got to talk to you and get to know you; Ive learned that you are very very fun...
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And just when I thought I was feeling better about myself too.
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Today I danced again. I went back to contemporary and it just felt so… right. Despite the bruises that I got today, I had so much fun choreographing this new piece. It’s one of my favorites so far and I’m so excited to perform it when it’s ready. I think it’s what I’ve needed…stressing over so many things makes me forget what I used to do to get myself...
White men can jump.
One day, I’m going to hop on a plane to Asia and visit the most remote locations around the continent. Specifically focusing on mountain temples high up on the peaks where oxygen is scarce. I’ve always had this admiration for temples that were built on top of mountains or were integrated into the cliffs from eras where technology wasn’t really available. Just appreciating...
Sometimes, I’m not content with the person that I have become.
In this world, you can be almost anyone you want. Everyday you can learn something new. It’s a personal choice whether you want to or not. But what it really comes down to is the people you choose to have in your life; who you surround yourself with. Find people or friends who inspire you the most and keep them close. Keep those who make you want to be a better person and bring out the best in you...
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When college starts, I’m leaving behind every aspect of high school and moving on to an entire new set of friendships. I’m in control of my life, and it’s going to change for the better.
I sat in my car with completely no sense in what I was going to do next. My eyes hurt, my throat ached, my body numb. With every car that was passing by, I whispered, “Please… hit me.” I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know what I want anymore, why I’m living, what my purpose is. I texted one person, but even then I couldn’t get myself to...
I don’t know what to say, what to do, what to feel anymore.
If someone asks what’s wrong, I wouldn’t know how to respond because I ask myself that question every day. My fingers are itching to type, but I just can’t seem to put everything that’s wrong with me into words, let alone… on Tumblr. I’m not equipped to battle this war - one on one with myself....
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4 things that I have realized, learned, and or experience in the past week.
1. My family is possibly moving to San Marcos. Which is really, really upsetting to me. Just when I thought I was going off on my own (kind of), away from my family - they decided to move in the area that I’m going to be living in. I don’t even know why my mom wants to buy a house at this time. It’s...
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So we’re graduating at USD.
And people are so unsatisfied. What’s wrong with graduating at a college that’s nicer than our own school? The parking gets so hectic and on top of that, the handicap people will not be able to be accessed into the stadium. Inconsiderate bastards. Our school isn’t rich so getting 5 free tickets is good enough - some people won’t even have...
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It’s getting to me.
Everything is getting to me.
I can’t hide the fact that I’m not going to be okay with going to a community college. I tell people that I rather go to a community college because it saves a lot of money and because I’ll be moving out either way.
But that’s not the point.
I have grown up with this mentality that I was going to a college. I...
Fuck the school system. Fuck college, fuck education, fuck society for pressuring people into this type of shit. Fuck the SATS, the ACTS. Fuck everything.
Living in a cottage in the middle of the damn woods sounds a hell of a lot better than stressing my ass over these things.
So for this past month, my classmates made groups on Facebook and invited everyone who has that same teacher into the group.
Basically, we complain about the teacher, the class, and of course we share answers.
I reframe from saying anything though because I’m afraid teachers and staff might see it.
I feel so sick right now.
It came all of a sudden. The need to throw up, weakness, everything.
Fuhh.
Man, life is one beautiful gift.
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“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all...”
– Mark 12:30-31
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Some people are so plain. So ordinary, so boring.
They like all the same things, dress all the same, looks all the same, there’s nothing interesting about them. Personality is bland, so it makes me wonder how some people can be intrigued… so hooked onto those types of people. Am I missing something? Or am I just blinded by how I want people to be. Maybe I’m exactly what I just...
I have a stack of brand new books that I have yet to open.
I have projects on top of projects that I need to complete.
I need straight A’s this 6 weeks.
College stuff is kicking me in the ass.
I despise money, and the lack of it in my life.
I need to recollect myself. I’m stressed, but the good kind of stressed.
I’m happy.
Some kids at my school are really trippin’ hard about not graduating at school.
Word is we either graduate at:
SDSU
USS Midway or
USD.
We just got a new field, so part of the warranty is that if we ruin the field by wearing heels, placing the chairs, etc then it’s off.
Gay you are, school.
It’s really crazy how amazing God can work His ways into helping you when you need it the most.
I’m sitting here in awe. Unable to speak. But I can’t wipe off this silly smile.
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A New Found Hope.
Today, I went to the Rock and listened in on one of the most influential sermons in my life. It reached to all different branches of worship and came from different types of people. I realized a lot, learned a lot, and understood what God was trying to tell me this past month.
I also came back to my old church. My home church. I was sitting alone most of the time and from time to time I told...
Prayers.
As you guys may have remembered, my friend’s best friend fell into a coma last month from heart failure. She was considered brain dead and was taken away from her family, friends, and boyfriend. Yesterday was her memorial and I heard it was beautiful. She’s so blessed, and so is her family. Please continue to pray for her family and boyfriend.
My other friend’s nephew also...
I always wanted that mother daughter relationship,
but then I realized, I don’t want to hear anything from my mom. I don’t want to be taught by her.
I grew up without the aid of my mom. She was never there for me, so hearing her advice to me isn’t something I am very fond of. We always end up arguing and I’m not going to deal with it.
Thanks, but no thanks.
daviiddnguyen:
Coldplay ll Paradise (YL Remix)
One of the hardest things to hear is that you have sincerely disappointed someone.
I just want to take my car out and go somewhere. Anywhere. Everywhere.
Going to sleep confused, but frustrated at why you’re so angry at everyone, stressed out, pushed to the limit, feeling your temper rise to the very top of your body is more worse than going to sleep simply mad.
Today was a shitty day.
Night.
Fuck everything and everyone.
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I just saw the trailer for Hunger Games.
Omg. I got chills.
If I’m not careful, I feel like my wrist is going to snap. Well not snap, but break. I’ve been feeling weak in the wrist for a while now, but I never really acknowledged it. I think it was from dance. I picked up my school bag and had to drop it immediately because the pain went up my arm and down my spine. :(
Back in November when I submitted my applications, I told myself that I have to get into a university or else I’m going to be embarrassed by my friends and I would be a failure.
Ha.
As these past few months progressed, I began to become comfortable with the idea of going to a community college for a couple years before transferring. I was thirsty for a new life, a new network of people,...
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I’m trying to recollect my thoughts into something I can understand whenever I look back through my blog, but everything is so intertwined together I can’t seem to untangle my problems. I’ve dealt with a lot of personal problems last month and I’m starting to sink back into my little corner of darkness. Of course, personal problems always find its way through people. Thus,...
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I started tearing up.
Me: I heard someone said you looked like an owl.
Andy: Who?
Me: ROFLAMFAOAKSDASDFKJA;SKDAFKSDFJAKDSFJAKLSJF.
Andy: .....
Me: LMFAOKALJSDFKLASJF.
Andy: Owls are fat I know, you don't gotta rub it in asshole.
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Different types of Senioritis.
1. Fake Senioritis - The belief that you hate school are ready to leave but you still complete all assignments. 2. Swag Apathy Senioritis - Feeling like getting dressed in the morning is close to unnecessary, dressing in sweatpants, dingy shirts, etc. 3. Academic Apathy Senioritis - Grades, tardiness and citizenship become the last thing on your mind. Common with electives. Walking a turtle pace...
I heard my school banned leggings.
I wear leggings 3 out of the 5 days of school. The other two are either shorts, sweats, or a dress.
If it’s true, my school has become a shit hole.
January 2012
94 posts
Things to do tomorrow:
- Request transcripts (due on the 1st =.=)
- Ask my teachers what my grades are for the UCLA supplement.
- Ask the dean of students how many Saturday schools I have, LOL.
- Book shopping.
If my interest for books I have to read for school are as high as the books I read for leisure, life would be easier.
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I’m so heartbroken.
Not because of love, but because as hard as I tried to forget someone of my past - it comes back to bite me in the ass. Hard. I tried to become someone I’m not. I tried to avoid being labeled as someone who’s always forgiving towards people that I care about. But in reality, I’m just that exact person I try not to portray myself as. Anguish fills my...
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My aunt’s house rules if I were to live with her:
- Study, study, and study.
- Be home no later than 2 am.
- Clean the dishes when they’re laying around, especially yours.
- Keep your room clean, clean your sheets once every two weeks.
- Eat whatever I cook, but if you want to cook something feel free to do so.
- If you want food, go to Costco with me.
- House parties? Of...
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I have very mixed feelings about Peeta.
And Katniss needs to get herself together.
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Next on my reading list:
Yakuza Moon: Memoirs of a Gangster’s Daughter & The Tao of Wu.